My wolf was talking to me. To Werewolves that wouldn’t be strange. My wolf Kye was speaking to me for the first time in two years.
My wolf was angry with me and probably still was. I wouldn’t forgive myself either, I was the reason he was giving me silent treatment. I hurt him in the worst way known to other wolves. I took away his and my mate.
Today my wolf decided to speak, he didn’t answer any of my questions nor did he even acknowledge me there.
He didn’t even make sense. He kept rambling, I couldn’t quite make out what, but I was happy that he was saying something. Even if I was in my wolf form, he wouldn’t speak with me before.
I was sitting in my study when my Beta Raphael entered with a single knock. Raphael was the only one that was allowed to enter my study without my permission. Before the tragedy two years ago he was my closest friend but now I was not worthy of having a friend, it was better that I was close to nobody.
“Alpha! I received a message from Dark Moon’s pack.”
“What is it?” We didn't get messages very often because of this pack's reputation.
“Their Alpha and his best warriors want to come and train here.”
This was something new, no one ever wanted to come here willingly anymore, there used to be dozens of messages from other packs.
Now they have heard thousands of stories about me and my pack. We were damned pack now, and not many people outside my pack knew exactly what happened to give us such a title and no one is to speak of that night.
I thought for a second getting up from my leather chair and walking up to a window that was behind my chair. “What good will it do to us?” I asked, looking from above at my pack houses in the distance.
I didn’t live with the rest of the pack. I lived alone in my huge house. Even my sister Fala didn’t live with me. I wanted her to live with me here but she thought it was too depressing here so she willingly lived at the pack house.
She said that this place lost all its glory and grace. And it was far from all the other houses, maybe that’s why I liked it so much. I loved being isolated.
I liked to be alone, as much as possible, now more than ever.
Looking from above I saw some people walking. My pack, Night Walkers Pack, once had more than two thousand pack members, now there were only one hundred and eighty one, not counting children.
We had many children because the majority of them lost their parents in a fight while they were being protected, and the rest were memories of passed away werewolves.
All this was only my fault. My pack members were blind if they didn’t see that it was my doing, I could have stopped it sooner but I was blinded by love. I could never forgive myself for what I did.
If anything I earned even more respect after that one night that caused this, and I hated it. So many people were killed, so many lost their loved ones. And they still praised me.
“Alpha Hans says he will give us fair pay.” My Beta explained. “Alpha, our warriors are most possibly the strongest there is, other packs fear us. This will let them know that we are reliable and trustworthy, helpful even.
My Beta continued. “We want to expand our pack as much as possible.Alpha, the pack members deserve this, to be seen as something more than prisoners.”
″Is that what they say? They are prisoners?″ I said more to myself.
Raphael laughed behind me. ″The stories never stop, they are so afraid of us that they make every excuse to hate us.″
My Beta was smart, but he also thought we were friends, what a fool. He had been with me since I first got my Alpha title. To this day I wonder why he didn’t fear me.
“They fear us?” I questioned but Beta seemed to let out a confused sigh. “They have never been afraid of our pack, it has been me for the past two years.”
“Alpha, they don’t know what happened. Everyone has a different tale of that night. You are a myth to everyone.”
I didn’t want to think about history. All I needed to do was what was best for my pack “Let Alpha Hans know that I agree and I will message him the dates when they can come and train.”
My Beta nodded pleased and left the study.
It was close to midnight but my wolf was still pacing around. Something was up with him. Maybe he had lost his mind from not speaking for so long.
What is it? I asked him.
Run! Let’s go for a run. Deep in the woods. There is this place. Huge tree. Full moon. There is it. Now! Let’s go now…
He was acting strange but at least he was sort of answering me. The least I could do was do what he said now. Maybe he would come around to fully talk to me.
I put all my work aside and did what my wolf told me. I got out a bag to carry my clothes with me. I didn’t know how far my wolf would take me, but it didn’t matter, the least I could do for him was this.
Entering the forest I stripped and put all clothes in my bag and shifted to my jet black wolf and took my bag in my teeth.
I let Kye take full control. He was running like crazy. We were far away from the pack now.
Kye was nearing neighbor packs territory. Slow down. We are outside our pack, I said to him taking back control.
We need to go there, he said.
Why? I replied.
Can’t you feel it? He said.
There was this peculiar pull towards our neighbor pack, but only in one direction.
I didn’t know what it was, I could very possibly just be walking towards my death, even if I knew this pack was friendly and harmless.
I put on my clothes and my feet walked with a mind of their own.
This forest was very beautiful and clean. Like there was no branch or leaf on the ground. It was nothing like my pack's forest. You could tell that this one was taken care of. Making this forest clean must be hard work, how did they even do it? How did they have time?
As I walked deeper in the neighbors pack I noticed a sweet smell getting stronger. It was the fresh smell of lilies mixed with sandalwood, it was strong but gentle and calm at the same time.
It was intoxicating. I was lightheaded. This was strange. Familiar and long forgotten feeling washed over me. What was it? I knew this feeling, but from where?
My wolf was quiet now, as if waiting for my next move. I didn’t stop, it wasn’t my wolf pulling me anymore it was me.
And then a girl appeared in my sight. No not a girl. A young woman. She was walking around trees and swirling around as if this was her first breath of fresh air.
She was wearing a long white, flowy dress, it complemented every curve of her fragile body. She seemed light as a feather she almost floated.
Her beauty was like no other, she was handmade treasure. Her dark hair shined under the moonlight as it brushed against her back.
My feet kept on walking and then she picked up a fabric from the ground and she noticed me and looked in my eyes.
Her eyes were perfect silver mixed with forest green, her lips were plumped and full, and her skin looked soft and porcelain like, without any flaw or dent.
She was the most accurate representation of goddess-like. She was perfect, angelic.
She broke the eye contact and put on the fabric she picked up, it was a cape. She covered her head with a hood but still I kept walking towards.
Something made me stop. Mate! My wolf said breathless.
Mate? No. this couldn’t be!
She turned towards me but she was looking down at her feet, I couldn’t see her face.
She was my second chance. I looked back at the moon.
Why Moon Goddess? Why did you punish this woman with such a mate as me? I can’t treat her like a mate deserves. I couldn’t let myself feel again, for my pack's sake.
But now that I met her I couldn’t be without her and she without me. I would never be a worthy mate to her nor will I try. I was sorry moon goddess for not being a worthy mate.
She will be close enough for us to not lose mind but I won’t let her close to my heart. I couldn’t let history repeat itself.
“What’s your name?” I asked her.
“My name is Adelie Murrell.”
Her voice was angelic and sweet, she spoke with grace and elegance, and even though she was looking down, her posture was perfect.
“I am Alpha of Night Walkers Pack Kairos Garcia.”
My statement almost made her look at me but still under that hood I couldn’t see her. She must have known who I was. I wonder which version of me she had heard.
“Will you come to my pack?” I asked her.
She hesitated for a second “I suppose. If that’s what I must do, Alpha.”
“Tell your Alpha that I will pick you up tomorrow, pack your things and be ready at 5 p.m. I will personally come and escort you to my pack,” I said in a demanding tone. And without any more glance I walked back to my pack.
My wolf didn’t say anything. He was mad for not embracing her. I couldn’t. I couldn’t reject her either, it would kill her and me. Few werewolves lived through rejection, and if they did, the majority went mad.
Rejection is the most savage crime there was.
I went back to my house and immediately mind linked my Beta. I need you now in my study!
He didn’t answer but I knew he got it. I disturbed his sleep, but I couldn’t wait till tomorrow.
Beta entered my study “Alpha. What’s the matter in this time of the night?” He asked me to fix his jacket. I assume he just put it on because he was rushing.
I leaned back in my chair “I went for a run...” I said stopping mid-sentence.
Beta furrowed his eyebrows “What? Were there vampires? Rogues?” I quickly shook my head.
“No... I met... I met a young woman there” I said and waited for his reaction. ″a woman that turned out to be my second chance mate.″
He smiled and laughed, “That is wonderful news” he exclaimed but soon changed his reaction when he saw me staring cold at the floor.
“But...you are not happy Alpha? Why is that Alpha?”
“If I had known that moon goddess was thinking of giving me a second chance. I would plead her to not do it,” I said slamming my fist at the table. This made my Beta turn somewhere between angry and sad.
“But the pack... they deserve to have Luna,” he said. And that is one of the reasons I couldn’t just let her go.
“Yes. And that’s why she is coming here tomorrow.” I kept myself as expressionless as possible.
″She is coming because she is Luna and not because she is your mate? ″ He asked, confused.
″She won’t be my mate! ″ I exclaimed
“You don’t want her but she is coming here?” He mockingly laughed. “You can’t fight the mate bond.”
“I can! And I will,” I said raising my voice “And I will do it with all my strength. She will not blind me again.”
“Alpha, give her a chance, give yourself a chance,” he said. How could he say that after what happened with previous Luna? “She won’t be like... her. You need... ”
I interrupted him. “That’s enough Beta. In the morning let the pack know about her arrival!”
″Alpha you are being unfair, I would give away everything to have a mate, and so would all the other mateless wolves,″ he half screamed at me, slamming the door shut behind him.
She will be like any other pack member just living under the same roof as me. Mate bond will have no power over me...